this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items
that don’t warrant a page by themselves
or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed
death and being unconcious are qualitatively different, it might seem obvious or not obvious at all
i don't fear being dead, beyond the disappointment of not living anymore, but the process of dying
terrifies me
there’s a lot of young people who get cataracts from
steriods and are now in need of lens replacement operations, being so young creates extra demands on
IOL choice
at
30 you may have an iol in for say
60 years, the ophthamology profession doesn’t look beyond ten years at the most so most of your life will be spent in "late stage" use, an area hardly covered in the research literature
the cataract operation is relatively simple and problem free, but once the lens gets
fibrosed in (six months to a year), "lens exchange" is much more problematic to the extent there is a limited number of surgeons i would personally be happy with to do that operation
the eye is a surprisingly aggressive chemical environment and degrades the
IOL clarity with time (the glistening rate is a good indicator)
at a young age
PCO is a certainty and
YAG is not riskless, though the risk is low
multifocals require corneal stability to be effective, smallish changes in sphere or cylinder will reduce acuity, sphere is easily correctable, cylinder raises question of uncorrectable higher order aberrations
my feeling is that cataract operations are best delayed until driving safety is impinged, the field is constantly improving in technology, even on a six months scale, like technis have recently addressed the poor rotational stability of their
IOL’s with some minor improvements
in fifteen years there may be lenses that can be reversibly set by laser and changes in prescription could be done without surgery
the alcon "clareon" seems a useful general purpose "go to" monofocal
IOL with an exceptionally low glistening rate, but i have no personal experience of it
the other side is a lot can happen in twenty years, easier and safer operations to "explant" lenses or even lasers to change the optics of of an already in place lens
micro-monovision which a small amount of add say
+.75D in one eye is an alternative to multifocal, but you need to try it first in glasses because it doesn’t suit everyone
its helpful to understand and look at "defocus" curves
i know people who claim to be very happy with the panoptix, presbyopia is the pits and needs some degree of solving, either in a monofocal with monovision add either in the iol’s or glasses or with a multifocal or edof iol
there’s various
trade-offs
an interesting
montage by turkish photographer
uğur gallenkuş
reddit (that warlike net forum) seems curiously adverse to it even though it is ideologically neutral or pacifist
rachel mckibbens on
her experience teaching at a notorious mental hospital
you want to give reasons for your statements, it speaks a certain incompetence to just say things without any justification
it is in fact a mental health condition called “
border-line personality disorder ” to say things and expect them to be taken as right just because you say them
allergies imo are a strong indicator to not have lasik, industry practice reflects this in a diluted form, my view is more extreme than most which is about
90% of current lasik operations are not justified in terms of risk, the bar is set too low
same with lens replacement operations (glasses-free) on non cataractous eyes actually
why zen has died is the lineage system has killed it, all the time and “ butt sucking ” means only the dull and stupid ever got “ transmitted to ” and the talented just set up on their own because you can do that with modern technology
“ i don't know where you picked up the idea that only the most dull and stupid are transmitted to.
typically a master picks up his brightest student to transmit to, like with shunryu suzuki and richard baker, to give just one, famous, example ”
from meeting a lot of them irl
neither suzuki nor baker were enlightened
the only person i ever met in my travels genuinely "enlightened" was toni packer and she got kicked out of the rochester center which speaks so many volumes of the retardancy of zen
give me one genuinely enlightened zen teacher, i will allow a few
“ quasi-enlightened ”
elizabeth wurtzel on why its better to be
controversial
face it brad warner, you are too dull to be controversial and no sex scandals means you are not a true zen/buddhist teacher
“ impersonating a rabbit ” doesn’t count, steamy “ tell all ” divorces count a little bit; hint
“ itchy boots ” likes the isolation
and vastness of the salar de arizaro
real “ spiritual work ” is very questioning and introspective and most people, not just can’t handle it, but don’t want to do that
the real zen is very questioning and introspective and most people, not just can’t handle it, but don’t want to do that
advice is often not taken because from their point of view you are one opinion, however, from your point of view
, you may have seen many similar instances of their particular problem
its very hard to convey one person’s experience to another when they differ
its basic bayes theorem that you reduce uncertainty by coming at something from a number of different angles
one thing i have learnt is you may think you know what people are thinking, but what they are thinking is actually quite surprising
at other times, you pretty well know and its not surprising
lasik, which is basically an altering of the shape of the cornea by scarring is way to casually embarked upon
there seem to a be a significant number of people for whom it has
gone wrong and what the very long term problem rates in terms of decades and very old age are, who knows ?
pema chödrön has resigned as an "acharya" (what a bullshit title!) from the shambhala organisation now chögyam trungpa’s son, mipham mukpo /sakyong mipham, has taken control again (or at least stepped out from the "shadows") after his public "shaming"
dogen and the great masters were celibate, zen/ch'an makes no sense outside of celibacy because you need an empty life and lifetime to wander in the wastes of meaninglessness zen requires
my observation of "spiritual teachers" and the sexual freedom contraception gives is its just an unholy
semi-orgiastic mess and can’t be anything else because the social context has changed from the times monks could be ordained very young then spend a lifetime travelling between hermitages and monasteries
tibetan buddhism always had a strong sexual element,
the dirt
“ and i remember witnessing him flirting with them in the manner of placing his hand on thighs or shoulders. i don’t remember seeing any groping of buttocks, breasts or vaginas
i was aware of women being invited to his private quarters and had on occasion seen
them leave the morning thereafter. if now asked to describe their facial expressions
on these occasions i would list a whole range of affects from elation and anxiety to
sadness and shame
rarely did i see women arise from his bedroom looking calm,
happy and refreshed. this pretty much sums up all of my observations of women
departing after nights spent for the years thereafter ”
basically sounds consenting to me, he was a bit of an alkie and took center funds too freely
what amazes me is the willingness with which the stupid disciples support this sort of nonsense, but of course they are in on the "racket" as well
all the same at least mupo is in it for the booze, money and sex
, there’s some sane reason for all that pretending bullshit, whereas all those vapourware "disciples" wandering around in absolute crap, for what, those stupid colourless beings that infect the spiritual circuit
there’s no hope
talladega
burning man
i have trouble with these huric nutcases (usually hostile) who follow me around on whatever web forum i happen to be posting on, my most recent reply to one
i can’t make head or tail of what you are saying or why except i gather you make a point of reading my comments
when i reply to people, i try to address them as a person and what they say and not make it some sort of projection on whatever blackboard that is available
don’t tell me i am wasting my breath
women
men
children
just isolated beings
in the imaginary reality called human
men
women
children
just isolated beings
in the imaginary reality called human
proofs of the existance of god are meaningless, you can’t extricate notions of god from existance
just bad melody from those idiots called theologians
there are some very young “ wunderkind ” composer/performers around, emily bear has charisma and is unusual in that she seems
genuinely happy
its heat that
dulls a drill bit when used on stainless steel
sharpening a drill bit on a grinding wheel
I
II
III
IV
V
VI
VII
VIII
IV
my sort of strange
alejandra pizarnik
if you ever find yourself getting sucked in by the female, there’s always an angle of their face that shows who they really are and its not attractive
i’m an equal opportunity misogynist and misandrist, if you think there’s something similar in the male let me know
i never learnt the stupid grammar or syntax at school because it seemed crazy, and guess what, it is crazy
, generative grammar and syntax is the real thing
“ eyes wide shut ” has an underlying flaw of inconsistency in trying to create a cult of that intensity without the close living together and intellectual simple mindedness and for that reason the film does not and could never work
frederick, the count of monte cristo would have been
the better film
i think they could have hit the right note with a sort of sciencey fiction society, a bit politically and socially removed from ours, clockwork orange did that, just the necessary amount of reality phase change
the first cataract operation is relatively problem free, but when the lens gets fibrosed in, the operation is much more difficult, though possible for some surgeons so its best to avoid the need to have the
IOL replaced
fibrosing has to happen so the lens stays in position
low glistening rate lens like the alcon clareon should last longer, but contrary to what you think, the eye is a chemically aggressive environment
i have noticed that ophthalmologists think in terms of five to ten years ahead for their patients and that’s all
maybe writing is a drug, an hallucinogen that extends time
education is the new prozac ?
ed. elizabeth wurtzel died a week ago, definitely one of the talented mad
women’s desire to have children and family
there are social contexts where that is not approved
but is so resilient, that desire
its part of the deep structure of the female brain
education creates illusions
one of which
is
that
you understand
a subject
there are an infinite number of languages
any language can be translated into another with a reasonable functional resolution
except for poetry, that’s almost a definition of poetry, that which can’t be translated into another language with any fine degree of resolution
why is that ?
what is the relation of poetry to semantics and sound that that can’t happen ?
what are semantics and sound that in certain formualtions, translation is not possible ?
you can't have two poems with exactly the same meaning in two different languages
i think the problem is that poetry itself erodes meaning
it is of and not of meaning
what is meaning ?
i notice with the net if that you look at
interesting people who really have great communication skills, you grow in a sense with them teaching you
of course you can watch the kardashians and weep
“ what is the difference between slam poetry and spoken word ? ”
the pacing is quite different for a start and it has its standard emphasises and rhythms
i don’t actually feel its poetry, rather something between poetry and lyrics
maybe it has it origins in plainsong ?
i think as a poet you have to justify that you write poems and not lyrics because the latter pays so much better that commercial song is the real competition for lyrics and slam and not poetry
there’s lot of poems with video interpretations on you tube and i think i have only seen one that worked, one of charles bukowski’s better poems about being at the dentists
most of the imagery seems to bear no relation to the poem, is sorta an
ADHD nightmare usually
mediocrity sucked below its level of competence, let the viewer suffer
the tattoo poem
nanoparticles
toxins in
the ink
allergy
response
gobbling macrophages
distort
immune
function
justin
bieber
beware
your
fate too
xanadu
beneath the caves
beneath the ice
no bottom turtle
above
turns into the trees, meadow
and alph
the sacred river
measureless to man
ran to the sea
so you know that coleridge claimed to have been interrupted by “ the man from porlock ” and forgot the rest of his most famous poem, so i read the poem and did a bit of research in the hope i could come up with some continuation of it, but no luck, i couldn’t get into his style enough, and what do you know, this poem popped out a bit later and its not a continuation but something else, i’m not sure what but i think in his spirit
xanadu
beneath the caves
beneath the ice
no bottom turtle
above
turns into the trees, meadow
and alph
the sacred river
i always think one of the great tragedies of sylvia plath’s life (apart from marrying ted hughes, star crossed if there ever was) is she was a very readable prose writer, the sort that would always sell well no matter what she wrote, yet it never eventuated
my reply to rachel mckibben’s
poem “ letter from my heart to my brain ”
i like her recitation, it doesn’t fit in the “ slam ” box at all and is better for it
i think what makes mckibben not fit the slam mould is her poems have a strong visual component and that her poems are in fact
visual rather than spoken, though of course they can be spoken
i find “ slam ” a bit empty, the imagery is not inwoven/dense enough
its ok
its not ok
the puerile stretches of imagination
constrained in a list
roll on
the search for meaning
melbourne is pretty bad for organised crime, several “ mafia ” type killings a year
the problem is you can’t really stop anyone if they want to kill you, a while back there was very effective assassin and he killed a lot of the mafia types there
the circus of the catholic church
gender twisting, inversion, perversion, insanity, psychosis
everything
except
sanctity
flat earthers — less than mediocre minds
craving for attention
to speak in general terms does not mean all the specifics conform
now korean sounds to me like nothing on earth, i can’t even conceive of it making sense, but if you look at the translations
they could be two english girls having a discussion
that prior to korean and english there’s a manipulative semantic function in our brain called language and its as tangible as motor movement
noam chomsky keeps up the good fight against the purile notion of language as a sort of vapourware appearing from nowhere
poetry is next gen or language
2.0
most never make it
the net
piles of words
munched on by the herd
not noticing
that
their
feed
is
toxic
the
insane
think
sanity
is
psychosis
the
sane
don’t
understand
their
own
pyschosis
the
sane/insane
are
able
to
judge
the insane think sanity is psychosis
the sane don’t understand their own pyschosis
the sane/insane are able to judge
you can’t bring back the dead, so it pays to keep on good terms with the living
dream story , the basis for stanley kubrick’s film “ eyes wide shut ”
the heft of hollywood was the emigration of
jewish artistic talent from europe fleeing the nazis, it created an intense pool of talent not seen before or after and still has echoes today
greta garbo and marie dressler in
anna christie
garbo’s friend
salka viertel plays marthy owens in the german language version
greta garbo’s
letters to salka viertel
r|optometery
should a sphere
-2.25 prescription be in
1.5 or 1.6 ?
a fight to the death
small minds don’t get smaller
academic poetry is just pretend and what’s happening now in the universities is a disaster
the untalented learning to mimic the bad
“ when i read your writing, i wonder what meds you are on ”
anti-psychotics and it works !
“ it could be argued that they aren’t ”
if i wasn’t psychotic you wouldn’t expect them to work would you ?
evening as the street lights come on
one light to be replaced by another
i know which i prefer
to be a very popular poet requires writing sentimental kitsch, something walter rinder excelled at
however that doesn’t make for lasting appeal, and why should it, if it did last what place would there be for quality poets ?
“ larry levis was an actual poet — and unlike bukowski — he could actually write ”
charles bukowski was genius, larry levis a workman, its not a gap its possible to bridge
one person has one opinion, another person has another opinion
only the demented try to conform the world to themselves
when one looks at this johannes vermeer
painting a strong sense of solipsism and being burdened comes across
zoomable
the bookish, lecturing world
caught in an endless meta about life
and not living it
you mean the insane
the insane talented
the insane not quite talented ?
monsters are not how people look, but behavior
stalin and beria were both quite handsome for instance
if you argue with net schizophrenics, because they are irrational and skip looking at the salient points, you are locked into an endless argument with them, and believe me, some never tire
any help given to these people is just rewarded with a kick to the face, so be tough and concealing with them
there’s an entirely different scale of things going in the middle east that makes a lot of western concerns look effete
the torture and murder of
hevrin khalaf
i have never seen an area undergoing so much technological change affecting the economics of the business with more on the way as optometry
all the demand is for ophthalmologists who get the money and prestige
ophthalmologists are the “ king bees ” in the industry, be in it a while and you will understand
there’s huge changes in materials and manufacturing and oddly, particularly improvements in math that are shaking the industry to its core
there are even home refractors in development which gives a pretty good indication of the way things are going
in any sensible world, there would be a relatively easy qualification upgrade for optometrists to a large portion of the ophthalmological work, but the ophthalmologists block that
optometry is effectively a guild and so is ophthalmology and turf fights have winners and losers
huh
, a step in the right direction
a low reading age is not harmless judging by the countless infinities of quixotian windmills that people tilt at for want of a better understanding
your low reading age is creating quixotian windmills for you to tilt at
shades of meaning
“ likely ” is a claim for probability, but its certainly not a claim for truth
“ it is seems
likely that peter was having an affair with rachel, but on closer investigation
the fact was they weren’t involved in that way at all ”
benefit versus need is another interesting one
“ i
need to be clothed, but i may feel i
benefit by designer brands, but i don’t
need designer brands ”
brad warner, are you sure that nishijima is not acting like any christian preacher or priest would, just trying to make sense of nonsense and give some passable speil ?
you lack experience with buddhism, its nothing like as coherent in doctrine as you pretend
what fits best with nishijima is what any religious priest of any competence does, they take nonsense and try to make something interesting out of it and of course this gives rise to extremely varying content within a minimal scriptural “ conformance ”
you even have quite a different take on nishijima’s “ doctrine ” and buddhism from his other “ dharma heirs ”
what is a happening with you ?
how can you offer advice and interpretation with any sincerity when you are so out of touch
are you being a latter day (in a small way) ron hubbard ?
the medical profession seems to be very unaccepting of the reality of the side effects of psychiatric medications
resorting to argumentum ad hominem shows a poor problem solving intelligence
the problem the catholic church has
celibacy = a gay club
married priests = episcopalian/anglicanism
they are caught between a rock and a hard place
if you view catholicism as a cult of the virgin mary which it might be, i think it needs to be celibate for that to have any meaning, married with kids knows the reality
the institution is unwinding before our eyes
the future always has to be imagination
because
of
prediction shortfalls
the problem with the ubiquity and ease of access to information and entertainment in the modern world is it creates an assumption of “ craftlessness ”
, but that’s not the way the world works
thats what i like about billie and finneas o’connell, you can see the level
of craft and interaction when they perform, they are creators and not consumers
the dangers of tidying
what has value is lost
the value to be
discovered later
by
its
absence
the first lines of a poem ( ‘ oritachi ’ ) by michizō tachihara
during those moments of evening light when i could feel nothing but delight, your flickering face wanly disappeared
later it hesitantly returned — but what was that about ?
my reply
her flickering face held in memory
disappeared
she was never there in the first place
bound to me
what is a dream but a half glimpse
of something that will never work
i get a reply
dream gives us a hope
and purpose to keep going forward
my reply
is that your real experience or just a nice idea ?
you have a dream that has worked out ?
i never have, that which has worked out has snuck up on me, unseen and actually partly unwanted
what is a dream but a half glimpsed working
of something that will never work
the trickiness of zen and buddhism is they can claim not to be religions, but they are in fact
the mechanisms of community induct the attributes of religion
my approach is unabashedly mystical
another way of looking at mysticism is there is another or are other more complete worlds and these/this can be navigated to some degree of resolution
this is in contrast to the unitary worlds of religion and physics, but embraces literature, but your own personal experience is the core, it is essentially not learned or doctrinal
the
battle of hastings was always a big deal to later english history and we got taught the “ poor harold ” “ bad william ” version at school, but william had the advantage of a fresh and well trained army, harold was foolish to have fought so close to his previous battle at
stamford bridge against the vikings and his brother
the large geographical scope of
11th century politics, stretching from byzantine to norway and france is interesting
the only way we can know the limitless is the deconstruction of limits
this does not mean anything is final
so many voices in today’s world
your own voice
not so many
there’s no limits to understanding, but its a process and can have dead ends and endlessness
the longer you live
the more you see this
ada is valdimir nabakov’s best work and has the potential to be made into a very good film
one of the more interesting paternity cases is who is the father of ronan farrow
the problem is sinatra’s children deny it and actually farrow looks like sinatra herself
ronan is half bookish half mad but with an artistic competence, a disinct possibility of the
farrow-allen combination
he looks like woody allen and has that autistic streak
but you really have to wonder at such ill fated stars ever coming together
life without migraine
a permanent holiday somewhere
its not to be
i just woke up with another “ cracker ”
most humans seem like automata
is that because
they are automata ?
most women seem like automata
is that because
they are automata ?
from our point of view a tree tends upwards with roots, a trunk and branches
but from a tree’s point of view, its equipoint anywhere on itself
déjà vu is that fine line between the dim recognition of something seen before and the recognition misfiring
in spring, the day glitters
water feeding the greens and sunlight the glitter
summer, softer, more muted is, already the life force fading
autumn, at least for a while the fading at its best
winter of course, let less be said
ed. this poem is sorta abstract and synthetic
alma deutscher is really in a time warp, today’s synthesis of the instrumentation of seventeenth to the nineteenth centuries
this lovely piece in fact needs part of the construct that is not here today, russian ballet in the time of the czars and tchaikovsky, all those mermaids tripping across the stage in phased synchronicity
she’s tapping into something and perhaps it will be partly rebuilt
i don’t think you can be an authentic person and stay in the academic arts and philosophy institutions
they are toxic mediocrities fucking up their students
it is corrosive
the universities should completely close their liberal arts departments, one can learn much better from the net at one’s own pace, all the universites do is teach people to like bad art, literature and philosophy and most of them never lose that unpleasant taste
science is not so bad because the subjects enforce a certain objectivity, but, by god, they can be narrow minded
medicine is a cot case of obsolete information being taught leaving a permanent distaste for any more study ever in its graduates, anybody with some reading of new research over the last several years can be well ahead of specialists in some respects
a totally
surreal landscape
, “ itchyboots ” travelling in high alitude andean desert, the
san francisco pass
its looks like “ dark matter/energy ” is
a goer
i presume its somewhat compatible with
this study positing the casimir effect
its the same as in life, things look sane well within boundaries, but when you get close to, or cross over them, things look insane
“ some people will attempt to distinguish
theater as the building and
theatre as the actual art ”
i’m with “ some people ”
it seems to me that “ practice ” is a western zen notion that has its origins with christian science and didn’t exist historically in zen/ch’an or buddhism
this is modern zen reinventing the past and actually islam does it as well, what is called islam is a twentieth century
re-invention of something that was quite a bit different historically, it was not so narrow or exclusive
since religions themselves are a
re-invention of novels as theatre, its hardly surprising the script is constantly changing in subtle ways
brad warner for instance is really a writer reinventing zen and buddhism again
this process can't be seen more clearly than in the origins of scientology which is basically bad science fiction with plenty of “ religious borrowings ” brought to life via a very interactive theatre
the full moon
a clear disk
if only
life
were
so
simple
women poets are different from men poets
they, suprisingly, are more imaginative
they favour more “ earthy ” themes like death and sex
the eschew the abstract
and can be a bit tedious
they have good poets, great and “ really great ” just like men
what the average is compared to men
i do not know, but it takes young males to write the numbingly bad
to read what is almost nonsense
scrambles my words
into coherence
the everness of writing
ever and ever
i can’t stop
or
can
i ?
the everness of writing
for ever and ever
i can’t stop
or
can
i ?
te reo māori is on the road to extinction ?
i know this is not an accepted view, but imo people who are multilingual are harmed by the neurological burden of the extra language or languages, of course in a multilingual environment, it may necessary, but to learn maori in new zealand is dysfunctional for those taught it
the situation in australia is orders of magnitude worse with the loss
120 of
250 aboriginal languages, some will be disappearing even at the moment as the last speakers die and within a hundred years they will all be gone
i don’t really attach a value to a language per se, there are differences in what ideas can be expressed simply in different ones, but basically its the meaning conveyed that matters
this is from a person who took six months to learn about ten words of samoan
more on
the fiasco of the
Bisphenol
A replacement by
BPS which turns out to more toxic to the heart by a considerable margin than
BPA
this is quite an interesting
study , with a more intelligent strategy by the germans, the british could have lost the battle of britain
there’s nothing inevitable about history, small changes, or rather changes, can give quite different outcomes and most likely a world that we are not part of
you only live once
its taken thirteen billion years to give rise to you and an unfathomable timeless nothing before that
why waste the tiny fleck of light we have been given for the briefest flick of time
there is something very unusual about life and in a limited way it can be figured out
the outstanding feature of today’s art and writing world is the investment of the universities in toxic mediocrity
fuck the pricks
writing
the cost is too high
a few will pay it
they are immortal
when ill
its important not to let things ride
do what you can
without compromising recovery
just thinking about things can be a good use of that time
blobbing out with music, video and gaming is not
for those that remember the shah and the revolution
, this article offers some interesting perspectives
sometimes
awash in meaningless sea
afloat in meaninglessness
intimations of mortality
the nullness
of
death
and
nothingness
this world
a moving simultaneity
chased by the past
into
an equally oblivious
future
i think the situation of the mafia is all changed compared to twenty or thirty years ago and modern technology actually favours the
FBI so the mafia are on a backfoot somewhat, the day of the large crime organisations is over, at least in places like the usa
religion attempts to handle something through constructs that are simply malfunctional in what they attempt to do
people are such fragile bundles of narcissism you have to be very careful to be indirect rather than direct in telling them anything, unlike song and music which is very direct and that’s part of its appeal
it has taken me a very long time to improve my social skills to the point that dealing with people doesn’t make trouble for me
from the vijñāna bhairava tantra no.
31
look upon a bowl without seeing the sides or the material
in a few moments become aware
my reply/restatement
a bowl swallows me up
life spits me out
i think a lot of these old religious writings have totally lost their original sense (and punch) through the loss with time of their language associations
i’m not saying the couplet i just wrote in reply is the original sense, but it might well be compared to what is assumed to be the original sense now
i say this because because the usual quotes are so weak and watery they are totally forgettable and would have never been recorded in the first place
fold the circle
pick up the sphere
disappear into the corner
and reappear in the square
law is best served as a threat and not an actuality
en bateau (blue wave)
a dance choreographed by michio ito, unfortunately its ruined by the voice over and i can’t find any other performance
case eight of the mumonkan
keichu, china’s first wheelwright, made two wheels of fifty spokes each
now, suppose you removed the nave uniting the spokes, what would become of the wheel ?
and had keichu done this, could he still be called the father of wheelwrights ?
my comment
spokes without a nave and rim don’t function as a wheel
the rabble get speared by unbound spokes
they drive them into themselves
the law requires wheels
but you have to rebuild them yourselves
wow, louis rossmann got a
dud contractor , read the comments, sounds like you have to be very careful in
NY
he made two mistakes choosing, any good contractor has a waiting list, but he chose a guy who could start immediately
and he took a recommendation from one friend (obviously with piss poor judgement) but you have to come from several angles, not just one
louis may have even started out on the wrong foot
, self-levelling concrete may have been the better way to go
i feel for louis, he’s like me, overconfident in situations he doesn’t know enough about and not asking around or keeping a close enough tab on what’s happening
i have always felt it a rule not to pay in advance for a service, or at least no more than some of the final cost, even with the best of intentions, once they have the money with no prospect of more, people’s priorities shift away from the work they owe you
“ there’s nothing objectively wrong with being a coke head, as long as they do a good job its none of your business what they do in their personal time ”
druggies claim their “ habits ” don’t interfere in their relationship or business with you, but they always fuck you over is my experience even if its just emotional wear and tear
drought
the air is
humming
with
flies
drought, the air is humming with flies
in the distance
a dog barking
yap yap yap
the moon
comes and goes
in the clouds
in the distance
a dog barking
yap yap yap
in the clouds
the moon
comes and goes
trudging along the road of life
mud then dust
all seasons
to end up in a strange place
that is not so strange after all
along the road of life
mud then dust
all seasons
to end up in a strange place
that is not so strange after all
the recursive nature of reality means we can never fully understand ourselves or others for that matter
changing experience forces new shapes we can never imagine
we don’t even know where to begin/start with the absence called death
cardiovascular harm from cigarette smoking is logarithmic, the
first cigarette shoots up to
50% of the harm of twenty cigarettes
interestingly
the relativity between dog and human ages is also logarithmic, not linear at all
chalk one up for mathematics there
the impact of light warmth/coolness and spectrum on the circadian rhythm/sleep cycle is surprisingly underestimated
for instance you do not want to be working at 1am under very white (high blue containing) light
sunlight dappling over the corals
a strange world
but normal to itself
is r|zen a new religion ?
is r|zen a “ schism ” from western zen ?
by “ western zen ” i mean the predominant modified/hybrid form of soto emphasising meditation and ignorance, the meditation is helpful and the elevation of ignorance into some sacred necessity is not
r|zen is a scriptural
non-meditative zen based on ch’an texts
i actually think there’s a possibility it will survive and i have unwittingly contributed to its development and in the usual manner of these things am now a heretic
i can’t go back there at all because they delete my OP’s, that’s what really makes them a religion, they need to censor because its false and if they don’t censor , someone like me will effectively deconstruct it
i would have actually gone back except for them deleting my best
OP’s, its like being disarmed before entering a gun fight
their “ bottom turtle ” is the presumption of the infallibility of the “ ch’an records ”
, if you take the view that i do, that the records are “ novelistic ”
, the religion evaporates, just like christianity and isalm do when jesus and muhammad are correctly understood as fictions and not historical
if you are working with a laser for god’s sake, check out the class and whether you need wavelength matched safety glasses
damage would show as a blind spot in the vision and some brightness etc as an afterimage
the eye can still recover from severe damage over a period of months, its just depends on the degree of damage
some laser pointers can be above their claimed class
people imagine that feelings are clear and unambiguous
but they’re not
show
and
tell
william
tell
what
the
hell
the modern propensity for self revelation requires skill to navigate to keep the consequences in the right court, you can see this on the various tv etc shows
i don’t plagiarize
but let other poets provide
a seed that grows
to be a poet
one needs personal truth
moderated
with
what
is
true
the form of a poem unseen
the words tumble out
spilling through my fingers
onto
the page
the citadel
alone in a sea of red
man or maiden
who can say ?
colour temperature is a
VERY important factor in choosing lighting, leds can have trouble being too white, higher colour temperatures are “ cooler ” and lower colour temperatures are “ warmer ”
i could explain it more, but i think with google its reasonable to expect people to research
some people string a few fancy words together and think they have a question
like beethovan’s für elise, claude debussy’s
clair de lune is a melancholic oprhan that seems to come from nowhere, yet both speak to our emotions so directly making them among the greatest piano pieces ever written
there’s an interesting contrast between the marvellous engineering of the
gun turrets of the yamoto and the incompetence of the politics and naval command that it was in service of
how can these gun turrets have been got so right yet the strategic management of the war been so wrong minded ?
i think its that you have a very defined function and closed feedback loops with respect to its performance whereas strategy involves predicting the future and that’s a very fraught area
when i started
i was already at the end
years ago
and i just noticed now
so many years later
the
end
hasn’t
changed
just
my
perception
of
it
when i started
i was already at the end
years ago
and i just noticed now
so many years later
the
end
hasn’t
changed
larry lawton on the
inner workings of the mob
a million hours of meditation is going to do you no good
if
you
censor
your
experience
if there’s this world, then tautologically there must be other worlds
where are they ?
if there’s this world, then tautologically there must be other worlds
what are they ?
i suppose i am attractive to the mentally ill
i’m some combination of a relief and a “ mark ” to them
i can’t even find any “ past lives ” to deserve that sort of karma from
unbelievable, los angeles to st. petersburg,
123 years ago osip mandelstam was a child
in those streets
interestingly
the show is highly unusual for a female performer for not being “ sexualized ”
what drives it is the interaction between the performers and the audience with the common experience of the songs
when i was at primary school, the chaplin used to warn us about the book of revelations being “ bad ”
he had lived in africa as a missionary so i think he knew what he was talking about
however the book turns out to be a diatribe against domitian caesar which i think has somewhat muted its focus as a schizophrenic latchpoint
a friend is a temporary ally in the vicissitudes of life
a friend is a temporary alliance against the vicissitudes of life
a friend is a temporary alliance against the vicissitudes of life
one of the problems young people have is media destroy any notion of “ craft “ they are simply flicking switches to get entertainment and have no idea of the degree of craft behind what they watch or listen to
education has a similar impart
if you are puzzled by what i say, they are basically things we already know, just give them a while, they will make sense
happy and its polar opposite — unhappy
are not
polar
opposites
the severely depressed captain of flight
MH370,
Zaharie
Shah, killed the passengers and
co-pilot by locking the
co-pilot out of the cockpit, depressurizing the cabin and flying to a higher altitude
a well planned suicide and not such
a mystery now
Brad
Warner
do you think that there’s such a thing
as being spread too thin
in too many directions
especially when there wasn’t much there
in the first place
the white beaches of nullity
let the grains rotate
and something else arises
the white beaches of nullity
let the grains rotate
and something else
arises
god, rupi kaur is female bullshit masquerading as quality
shows the depth out there doesn’t it ?
the problem of monotheism is this
if you say there is one god, that implies there are other gods and if you look at supposedly monotheistic religions you see other gods, angels in various rankings, saints, bodhisattvas, buddhas endlessly permuting in their various tableaux
the historical schismic activity of christianity is largely tied up in the relation of the father, son and holy ghost
go figure
the thing about the web is you are right at the end of the publishing chain with no filtering on the level of craft
this has good and bad aspects, the positive is that you are being published without what used to be the necessary comformance to the various editorial, corporate and social requirements
the negative is mosquito filled swamp of the craftless, or worse, the
anti-crafters who then devote their lives to trying to take down any level of craft they can hit
you are comfortable on r|zen
they are pretenders
that makes you
a
. . . . . . . . . ?
those chasing literary skills
without craft
dreamers
r|zen
chasing literary skills
without craft
dreamers
there’s nothing new
it just rotates so it looks like there is
after a while
you get wise
then
death
takes you
for knowing
ed. one of my best poems, i worry about not being able to do quality like this anymore, but they keep turning up
i don’t know why or where they come from except a persistent interest in the subject referenced, but the poem is put together in a new way, does a migraine help?, i have a migraine
the second line has subtle ellipsis, you have to work out the what it means, but you should understand automatically
on reflection
ideas about ourselves
vanish like smoke
ideas about ourselves
vanish as smoke
kyle sandilands is a fool when it comes to women, but then, what man isn’t ?
young women have old men for breakfast kyle
get it ?
ed. rather amusing, i wrote breastfast for breakfast for breakfats
there’s an infinite number of potential languages, in themselves they have no value, its only use that gives them value
philosophy babble
endless
meaningless hubric
the pompous idiot
shovelling words
like shovelling clay
and as much use
typical japan, hounding carlos ghosn for doing nothing remarkable in the way of graft by japanese standards, but not a single person responsble for the fukushima disaster has been touched
bentinho massaro is using the da free john/free daist formula,
party and sex to glue his cult together
he’s a good dancer
, but dancers don’t have the right sort of brain for thinking straight
just people wasting their time, the way i have spent my life, i can’t criticize
all these highly concussive sports are doomed and there’s not much that isn’t, however handball looks ok
nora mørk
denmark versus france
2016
meth or speed and it would be dangerous not to give the bike to him
there’s a theory about the evolution of humans as a
self-domesticating species that ultra aggressive people were killed by the group
you’re the lead clown
in the usual
spiritual circus ?
what audience is there ?
none
there is no end, but returning cycles of endlessness
you can go through your life
and then discover
your children are not you
a hidden agenda of bullshit is not going to get you far
i don’t even believe in “ whole truth ”
, its just more nonsense and another disguised monotheism
“ if something isn’t true . . . does that mean that its false ? ”
what does it being true mean ?
“ what is meant by meaning ? ”
truth is recursive on falsity
i had two homilies in mind
i wrote the first and forgot the second
story of my life
don’t rest in peace forgotten homily, i hope to see you resurrected
whatever language you speak
that’s your culture
whatever language you speak, that’s your culture
i don’t even believe in “ whole truth ”
, its just more nonsense and another disguised monotheism
religion is the medieval world brought into the
21st century
for instance the supposed “ infallibility ” of the pope, it doesn’t make sense now but in the medieval world it was an instrument of political control and made sense in that context with the hidden undercurrents of torture and execution for doctrinal heterodoxy
things i cannot understand
restaurants with toxic food and exhorbitant prices
women on multiple pyschiatric meds in denial about severe side effects
an education system that squeezes its pupils into moronacy
the projection of infallibility onto the higher ranking medical people
philosophy says you can explain, but mysticism says you can’t explain
“ what do you say ? ”
you can and can’t explain, but basically you can’t convey your own experience in this respect to another
“ you seem ambiguous ”
its not
when we sleep, the brain is not metabolising sufficiently to keep itself warm enough which is one reason why we dream so i would be cautious of these new “ cool head ” pillows and copper laced covers (
anti-bacterial, but also thermally conductive)
i quite like these
summary videos since philosophers express things in such an idiosyncratic manner with their own tailored vocabularies (yes, a schizophrenic symptom) that’s its a lifetime to understand even one and to be frank, their writings and views are so often a confused babble that you never come across one who doesn’t
keep up the good work alain, though i, personally, have better things to do
an-other
i think hiedegger treats death as a bit real and boundarized, this makes “ being ” more real than it actually is
nostalgia is the crafting of a more ideal world than any we ever lived in
the universe is larger than any religion, philosophy, metaphysics, theology or physics, quite a bit larger
let them build boxes around themselves, why would you want to stop them anyway ?
i was thinking, if i had led a more conventional life, i would be feeling i wanted to do more, but i don’t feel that way at all with what i am doing
heidegger is looking increasingly toxic with recent revelations about his unrepentant nazism
philosophy doesn’t like to address the notion that if heidegger was a great philosopher, then what is philosophy about ?
i’ll never forget in the early days of the web a man’s account of his father being executed by a couple of teamsters union people i think
they just drove up to their house, took him out to the garage and shot him in front of this young boy
it always amazes me the very low level of reading comprehension on the web and the extreme aggression used to defend it, just about all the replies to my comments or
OP’s are people who take two or three keywords out of my writing and build their own little projection around those words
it gets weirder, i post on r|poetry and in one of my “ conversations ” with a moderator it turns out he doesn’t like or understand poetry, i would have to say this sort of insanity is more typical than it should be, its sorta a
dunning-kruger nightmare, incompetence establishing and dominating territories in areas they are so clueless, they cannot even perceive their incompetence and actually the “ spiritual scene ” is like this as well
if you have a mission to “ educate ” entitled schizophrenics, then the web is the place to do it
if you work with people, you get along much better with them
the weirdness of youtube with so many really great pianists and enough recordings that one can become a connoisseur
i notice that most recitalists seem to have a particular composers they are in harmony with and play better than other composers
this expressive and softish
rendition of la campanella by tiffany poon seems one of those performances
if you get distracted
you might be tempted
to think there’s something
when there’s nothing
splashing in a puddle of
non-resolution
is not resolution
splashing in a puddle of
non-resolution
is
not
resolution
what you are doing is a volunteer activity at this point, the golden rule for volunteer work is it must also return to you some substantial benefit, its usually never money but improved skills or an entree into another more interesting life, so i would say follow your own interest and benefit and not pay too much attention to the needs and opinions of others
see the faces
outside
the uniforms
see the faces
outside
the
uniforms
you never understand what a funny thing language is until you hear people talking in another that you don’t understand
you never understand what a funny thing language is until you hear people talking in another
all this phoney “ compassion ” and “ live for others ” buddhist bullshit, if you don’t prioritize yourself to a major extent, life becomes unliveable
just to stand there
lost beneath the night sky
the southern cross and pointers
where you went
nobody knows
you are always jumping ship before the ship sinks
but sometimes you have jumped ship and it didn’t sink
aubrey plaza is an interesting mix, half puerto rican, half irish ancestry, she had a stroke at
20 with resultant expressive aphasia and a temporary paralyis
she has a “ unique ” and very effective dialog style, owing quite a bit to improv experience, but its half herself and is partly born out of the permanent component of the stroke injury
given the degree of her recovery and intelligent edge, i would say high
BDNF (
brain-derived neurotrophic factor)
, not unusual with hybrid breeding
look
look again
cogitate
look at something else
then
it
will
click
look
look again
cog-i-tate
look at something else
then
it
will
click
100 different ways to look at something
some will settle out
100 different ways to look at something
some settle out
some people go direct
i rummage through everything that’s not
then end up in the direct
by that process of
exclusion
its so weird to look out and say
wel that’s the way and i have been there before
there’s no other option that’s real
buried with arrows, spears; the real amazons, fighting
horsewomen of the forest steppes
why is sincerity important in an apology ?
because you can predict future behavior from that
when people become famous
the world closes off for them
a circumference of predators
sometimes you can approach things directly
sometimes you have to approach things indirectly
because for you there’s no direct route
you (ed. lurkersim) have a major problem with senseless ambiguity, the way you use it, its a sophistical technique designed to confuse and make you appear more on the ball than you are
you spend a lot of time writing, yet you don’t hear my criticisms of it
the trauma of sleep
the brain falls down
and is built
back up
i think any creative art has the statistical problem, that only
1% of what is written, composed, created is really very good and will stand unopposed in the public domain
you have to approach this “ peak ” through the other
99% , it can’t be approached any other way
i think this is the barrier to being a competent artist or writer otherwise every flakehead on the net would be significant
criminality has two faces
, as a business or as some form of temporary or more persistent insanity
as a business, school or public massacres don’t make any sense, why would you do it, as insanity you gave to accept the origins come from within the system, particularly school shootings, somehow or other violence has been learnt as a problem solving technique, compulsory education is violent, a massive societal trauma
entertainment is surprisingly ruthless as a business
thumbs up or thumbs down
don’t waver in the middle
fiction
the reversal of death
the amelioration of the pain of loss
fiction
fiction
the reversal of death
the amelioration of the pain of loss
fat chance
i think religion depends on artistic illiteracy
if you are not artistically illiterate
why would you waste your time
with
religion
déjà vu
☐ does lie
☐ doesn’t lie
check one
or
two
katy grannan
portraits video
in the west against the fading blue of the dusk sky
only the classic symbol showing
a thin crescent moon and evening star spaced far apart
it seems more than the stupid politics
devoid of politics
i
quite
like
it
the easiest way to see that this world is insane is the price paid for jeff koons’s
rabbit 1986
$91,075,00
$53,000,000 for andy warhol’s “ double elvis [ferus type]
, 1963 ” is a close second
its makes me wonder what it will take to puncture the bubble of tens of millions paid for bad kitsch
who would have thought the super rich were such an easy mark ?
the galleries, auction houses and art experts, that’s who
quite a little ecosystem going on there, it may be that the intellectual
downsizing of modern art is integral to its appeal
i quite like
tschabalal self
the smaller fry
why are all the guests on buddha at the gas pump so consistently schizophrenic ?
you would be hard pressed, even if you intended only schizophrenic guests to have such consistency
i can only think its the total rejection of any signs of sanity on concious and unconcious levels
i used to wonder how activites like this can persist, but people take it to the end of their lives, then
some-one else steps in
rick’s health and mind look like they are failing a bit, at some point its going to be embarrassing to be interviewed by him, even the unkown crazies he interviews will baulk
totally surreal, fishing in
a glassy fjord
i haven’t been there
but
i could
looking at the lyrics to billie eilishe’s
bury a friend , its a good example of how lyrics differ from semantically dense poetry
basically its vapourware, its the wrong side of voynich versus coherence, you can look at it, but it never yields hard semantics, it hooks straight into the brain via the voice and sound and it leaves mental noise which is how a generation is being brought up today
i am there in sleep
various shaped
monster and non monster
don’t ask
where
i go
my brain rebels
at knowing something
too well
my brain rebels
at knowing
something
too well
fiction
the reversal of death
the negation of finality
more fiction
yuja wang
intimidates the berlin philharmoniker with her virtuosity playing prokofiev’s toccata in
D minor,
Op.
11 as an encore
i’ve looked at a number of composers and performers across a number of musical genres and with a few exceptions they are really quite ordinary minds
, but competent at what they do
which is what you would expect, but all the same its disheartening
i’ve looked at a number of composers and performers across a number of musical genres and with possibly one exception they are really quite ordinary minds
, but competent at what they do
which is what you would expect, but all the same its disheartening
an amazing afternoon walk at somerset beach, tide out, table cape to the west, surreal in the haze and distance
and i wasn’t bothered by any new poems
the circus of aging
inspiration or plagiaristic source ?
double talk in the music industry
yup
i’m even banned from r|poetry
thugs controlling message boards
fiction
something that’s not true
but there’s an ambiguity about that
fiction sometimes has more insight than reality
religion these days
people voluntarily believe what once it took the prospect of a
dire death to make them believe
religion these days
people voluntarily believe what once it took the prospect of a
dire death to make them
as a publishing medium the web suffers one flaw
the drug takers and schizophrenic low lifes, missionizing whatever crap they are fixed to
the druggies take over everything validating their drug taking
so much of the web
the usual shit to validate drug taking ?
these people slime in everywhere
look
its an endless road
don’t look
and it doesn’t appear endless
look
its an endless road
don’t look and it doesn’t appear endless
a bit of an explanation
also known as
spinning a song and dance
some-one’s gone
emily cries
her dress
she
shouldn’t
wear
ed. this references emily dickinson’s poem “ before the ice is in the pools ”
fiction
the reversibility of death
the sting of its finality
gone
fiction
the discontinuity of life
we are there
and
then we aren’t
reincarnation is a variation of the hypothesized “ afterlife ” so essential to religions and part of the same denial of the discontinuity of existance
tiffany poon
time travels on original instruments
visionary and mystic experiences are quite different from the deluded twaddle of mediums and that sort of schizophrenic nonsense
i was thinking, if you limit yourself to your own generation as you get into middle age and beyond, its not going to leave much is it ?
there are surprising similarities between music festivals and medieval morality plays, moral messages, altered states of being, really significant cultural events in terms of forming outlook
listen to the audience
sing along , unreal for the songs impact
billie eilish, handling the audience
, i was going to say “ like a pro ” but its “ as a pro ”
home schooled like alma deutscher, she shortcircuited the ten years necessary to unlearn state schooling and then another ten years to skill up, but which time of course, everything has faded
anybody who appears on “ buddha at the gaspump ” is schizophrenic, or rather the brainless mad, schizophrenia is not necessarily brainless
the girl dreams of a lover
the lover dreams of a man
the man dreams of a lover
is it a girl or a man ?
a girl dreams of a lover
the lover dreams of a man
the man dreams of a lover
is it a girl or a man ?
the girl dreams of a lover
the lover dreams of a man
is the lover
a girl
or
a
man ?
what is so fundamental about rejection ?
i almost think there’s nothing we feel so strongly
men and women both stamped
from their dies
women in particular
don’t seem to vary
its in front of your noses
its not in front of your noses
but the seeing beyond
is when
the beyond
sees you
jason’s corgi-centric
christmas card 2019
a very good
video on
UV adjusted
IOP’s for cataract, “ illuminating ” even
basically the extra precision of the adjustments enables monovision to trump trifocal, but i still have questions about the long term stability of the cornea reducing the precision significantly, what is really wanted is a reversible adjustment
why the zennist
incompetence in spades
persists
i
do
not
know
why the zennists
incompetence in spades
persist
i
do
not
know
in outer space he yaws
a bullet shot from an inaccurate gun
he thinks he is on target
lurkersim’s poem titled : domes on the rocks
The capstones float undisturbed
in the nothing
they failed to note existent.
Form lost.
Form sustained.
my reply
cap stones don’t float
they sink
in the
inverted world
if the understanding is not interior
you are wasting
your
time
stupid or wrong ideas often lead to better and more workable ones, be open to that path, in fact they may be the only route
ram dass has died, i remember seeing a video of him saying he once gave a talk on the effects of taking a psychoactive drug and this quite elderly lady came up after the talk and told him how what he said matched her own experience, he was puzzled as she seemed too old to have taken
LSD or psilocybin etc so he asked her “ how so ” and she replied “ i do embroidery ”
that was a good anecdote
i do think the drugs fucked his health
having been “ following ” brad warner for years and he is part of this very fake and incompetent musical culture, its quite amazing to compare it with the real mackoy, finneas and billie
eilish
home
this
xanny is very good, social commentary really
within the surface of a circle or sphere, there is no end or start, but once outside that context you can say there is an end or start, namely removal from the surface
what is the end or start of “ end or start ”
not so easy is it ?
“ in the midst of the word he was trying to say
in the midst of his laughter and glee
he had softly and suddenly vanished away —
for the snark was a boojum, you see ”
the expansion of the universe is not due to dark matter, but an
an interaction between quantum vacuum and topology
at the root of everything is the tautology of nonexistance implying existance within it
amazing that all springs from this simple meaning
all this religious bosh about
non-thinking is so crazy one doesn’t begin to know where to start with criticism
you don’t have to look outside meaning
just get it right, that’s all
explanations fail
because explanations succeed
and
fail
my experience of people who do pot
AND alcohol is it really fucks the brain permanently
in ten to twenty years they become to a degree derelict
you know you’re a hermit when you go to town thinking its the day before christmas eve and its actually christmas eve
i lose days or even gain them sometimes
i wonder if the uniqueness of the middle ages obsession with god was due to the prevalence of early death
go for a walk by yourself
you will see the world
a deserted beach
twixt late afternoon and evening
christmas eve
unbelievable
a deserted beach
late afternoon — early evening
christmas eve
unbelievable
all the films
are just script writers ideas of how the universe works
which turns out not to be very accurate
alexander the great asked the philospher thálmos if he had any advice for him
thálmos replied
this is hard to explain as i have only recently worked it out myself
, but when you reach the end of something
, everything looks the same, you go forward and things still look the same
, that just means you have reached the end though it goes on forever
beyond a certain age this is how we live
, but its not the best for us though it feels comfortable
cumulative subconcussive impacts can also cause brain damage
the old
sophisticated mafia, i don’t think they work like that anymore
there’s two circles
the circle of contemporary life
and the circle of those over the ages with an understanding
unfortunately you need both
there’s two circles
the circle of contemporary life
and the circle of those over the ages with understanding
unfortunately you need both
the nothing of nothingness
compared to something
is not tangible, observable, discernible or obvious
being goes one way
non-being another
we understand things going wrong in terms of the way we look at things, but we don’t understand the way we look at things going wrong
so much of comedy and humour depends on the
dunning-kreger effect;
inspector clouseau , morecombe and wise
people assume there are only the two categories, that something may be false or true, but there is a third category i call “ voynich ”
, which is nonsense crafted to appear true and so much of religious, political and cultural thought is this third category
five to six doesn’t seem so many years
but they are enough
to almost totally form
ourselves
5 or
6 don’t seem so many years
but they are enough
to almost totally form
ourselves
some things you find simple will maybe take others half a lifetime to find out, or never
some things others find simple will take you half a lifetime to find out or never
is there any such thing as a gestalt ?
or is it just another voynichy concept ?
salt should last the life of the universe, but this was felt to be too long so the saxa sea salt flakes i brought are “ best before the eleventh of june
2022 ”
they don’t have any iodine in, but i get that essential element through eating thyroids and topical application
dawn in a rocky cove
sunlight
glistening on the sea weed
the sea shimmering in pink
the search for meaning
does
not go beyond this
brittin lane covering
mad world
there is an reflective quality in her voice, sad and bitter but accepting of the light beyond illness
“ the mind is the triple world ” so why would you just read rather second rate zen books and not read the poetry of emily dickinson or john of the cross or the writings of sa’adi ?
that you can tell a zennist by their closed mindedness and getting upset when confronted with what they are not familiar with is an indictment of what ?
the world is wider than wide, why get bogged down in the stupids and their take on a religion ?
religion is one of the last remnants of medievalism in our society, beliefs, ceremonies, is it any wonder it has crashed ?
religion is the last remnant of medievalism in our society, beliefs, ceremonies, is it any wonder it has crashed ?
when you write, you alter your future
classical music is a bit weird because there’s such a reservoir of superlative performers but so little in the way of new music
the siren sounds
waltz composed by alma deutscher
there’s also an interesting boundary condition with the instruments themselves versus what is now possible with electronics and the computer and i feel alma is not positioned right here
a million invitations sent
a tiny few replied to
a million invitations sent
one or two replied to
a million invitations sent
not even one replied to
its an interesting point, how to get benefit from commenting on vblogs, blogs or message boards
i’m learning not to “ stitch ” stories but allow the responding to bring one into fresh territory
some of my comments could be seen as
anti-religious, but i’m not trying to change the world, rather, simply make observations to help one avoid the traps
i have been surprised how “ christian ” ch’an was compared to daoism and buddhism and its because when ch’an was being formed there was nestorian (non-trinitarian) christianity in china
that also explains why zen has slotted so well into western culture, zen in a way is monotheistic leaning to the “ ineffable ” side, and since trinitarianism is so obviously a thorn in christianity's side, the west has been very open to a reformed version like zen
of course another reformed version called islam it isn't open to at all because of its conflicts with the byzantine empire and of course, the crusades
my view is ch’an and zen are religions like the rest and like all religions they have a mystical branch and you can argue that dogen, hakuin, the sixth patriarch and joshu are the mystical, but in the main its the usual religion mired in bullshit
buddha said, please get me out of this soap opera and let me fade back to
non-existance
eihei wrote a book, brad wrote a book, i didn’t write a book, who is the winner ?
actually i don’t think eihei wrote a book at all, that just leaves brad
me, i am into “ fascicles ” and their web equivalents
the problem with a book for this sort of work is it has too much story line stitched into it
ed. eiehei dogen and brad warner
how long have you been dribbling nonsense ?
“ i haven’t been dribbling nonsense ”
those people who dribble nonsense don’t think they are dribbling nonsense
“ silence ”
how long have you been dribbling nonsense ?
“ i haven’t been dribbling nonsense ”
those people who dribble nonsense don’t think they dribble nonsense
“ silence ”
the visual effects at
this “ yellow lounge ” event with sara ott and mischa maisky are really relaxing
claude debussy at his best
the verbal world is so full of disguises
that to say what you mean
and be understood
is unique
the way some people treat their brains
like its the most useless bit of trash ever
they loudly project
competence onto remote others
while those around them
they diss
the way some people treat their brains
like its the most useless bit of trash ever
they loudly project
competence onto remote others
those around them
they diss
the ages spew sages
who vomit nonsense
which metamorphoses
into life
and strife
ed. : my version of the creation myth
the ages spew sages
who vomit nonsense
which metamorphoses
into life
“ why do you write poetry ? ”
as an escape
“ as an escape from what ?”
the dullness of the world
“ why do you write poetry ? ”
as an escape
“ as an escape from what ?”
from the dullness of the world
“ why do you write poetry ? ”
as an escape
“ as an escape from what ”
an escape from the dullness of the world
caprice no.
5 by paganni
played by sumina studer
women are a nightmare
one’s enough trouble for anyone
or in my case
naught
i really like the “
3M ” brand masks, i have
this one
the difference between fiberglass and asbestos is the fiberglass eventually comes out but asbestos continually splits so never does and eventually causes cancer
whatever viewpoint you are defending, you are not a good advertisement for it
i don’t like lasik because you are really messing the eye up for an effect that will only last five to twelve years
the cornea is in fact the eyes “ first lens “ and is a flexible dome
sight is too precious to take unnecessary risks with the eye
all eye stuff is “ let the buyer be beware ” there has to be a very substantial benefit to justify lasik
religion and actually education as well devalue the notion of “ craft ” in developing ideas
the universal pictures film
cats looks a cinematic failure, they haven’t been able to translate it from a stage show into a film
disney could teach them a thing or two
actually i think it was always doomed, i wouldn’t have paid thirty cents for the film rights, all they had to do was read the poem
life erodes
health erodes
death erodes
you might
as well
relax
“ is it right ? ”
i don’t know what you mean by right
is it correct enough to be of utility is what i would ask
the ability to wait is the gold of life
those rabid web commenters whose expertise is in grinding axes to become blunter than they were before
eihei dogen being entirely fallible is just as problematic as him being entirely infallible
mésalliance, a word hardly understood these days, but so commonly occurring
jan zwicky
reads her poem “ night music ”
being a man and its a woman’s poem, it took me several views to “ get it ”
i like the last lines
this talk by diana athill gives a lot of the flavour of “ 1984 ” sort of seminal to the book i think, that aura of constant threatened survival and actual deprivation
i think the criticism of “ overthinking ” is not that we are “ overthinking ”
, but our prediction options become too narrow and therefore out of sync with reasonable probabilities,
anti-dialogical and monoglossial if you will
unfortunately that is also the road of “ spiritual inquiry ”
easy to entrench a wrong road like martin heidegger with his nazism and
anti-semitism
maths is the language of numbers, graphs and geometry, that’s all it is
it is an negentropic device to deal with counting, a form of perception and prediction, just like our conventional use of language
i would challenge that eihei dogen said/wrote in favour of the validation of the notion of “ universal oneness ”
, its just the usual translator bias and philological slackness and its not a ch’an or zen ideological sticking point at all
the notion actually is quite christian, or at least, non trinitarian/pantheist christian
its a voynich cultural idea that’s been floating around for millennia, the usual nonsense regurgitated by the moron masses and their “ scribes ”
the land of the midnight sun
a calm sea
but not always
i’m getting like charles bukowski in my old age
and actually i don’t have too many years before i will have lived longer than him
he sat down in the evenings at a typewriter with whisky and the classical station on the radio and wrote
i don’t drink and surf the web and write
i listen to the occasional
music video
its the end of time and not
i could do this forever
i’m not sure i want to
in what dimension do i exist ?
in what dimension did anne sexton exist ?
cycles of birth and death
one survives, the other doesn’t
the dead sea scrolls would have to be the most overrated and useless collection of writing from antiquity
only insane fools would waste their time on them
miles and miles of voynich
who cares ?
the library of herculaneum is not much better, they lucked out with it effectively being the repository of a rather
dull and stupid philosophical sect (
philodemus ) though the villa they were housed in is spectacular
the epicureans can be a bit stupid but philodemus seems different, a live wire and probably a causative influence on the cultural sybaritism of the roman ruling class
nag hammadi, with some exceptions is a collection of psychotic junk
the real stuff, like sappho is lost forever
the human species is perverse
at a certain point
you get to yourself
the endlessness of other
not infinity
its boring
a happily married couple
two matching illusions
people who are so
self-absorbed who can’t see their nose from their arse
vampires of neediness
people who are so
self-absorbed who can’t see their nose for their arse
vampires of neediness
people who are so
self-absorbed who can’t see from their nose to their arse
vampires of neediness
incredibly modern looking, but the real thing from
3500 years ago, a
seal stone of a fight to the death, it has a magnification option
full article
fictions versus realities
the fictions sit easier on us
side effects from medications for other conditions are an underrated cause of eye problems
arabs and other middle easterns are smart, but can be aggressive, a bit mad even
a philosopher is one who asks meaningless questions and spends the rest of his life solving them
he thinks he has spent his time meaningfully
the poet tells him otherwise
one thinks endlessly
conflates, deflates, inflates, postulates
dislocates, locates, synthesizes, pares
deconstructs, constructs
ladders built to nowhere ?
the end is not the end
the end is infinite
you can waddle there forever
when you write
you are modifying
your
memories
i look for my kind
not my family, not those i know
looking everywhere
nothing finding
only myself
i can glimpse my kind in books
through
the ages
that is
all
the difference between visual art and books is the level of construction required by the looker/reader/observer which is why books can have a more profound effect because the art of writing is to enable the reader to construct or rather fit what they read to their own paradigms and experience
hallmark and other “ second tier ” actresses seem an unusual bunch,
multi-talented but pretty mediocre in any one talent, singing, music, languages, more than one culture and of course aging
on the whole much saner than the more well known ones
multi-tasking has intrinsic elements of dialogic, heteroglossia and canivalism, more focused lives that deprecate these will be unpleasantly unstable
a lot of life requires we think in a slightly different way, what actually has worked, more is not necessarily better
you want to be more open to how things might be, its very difficult to predict the future
its the nature of work you are in an inferior position
you are not the boss, you are an underling
the way to rort the system is let the job pay you very much more than the cash in skills gained and this requires your own research outside job hours as well
enlightenment is just a certain sort of understanding, but the hidden clause is it requires you to live to a certain level of consistency with that understanding which is hard
why would you have to fight tooth and nail to defend your views which most seem to do
what stands alone can support itself
thank-you
harp seals
look cute , but its a ruthless life when your mother abandons you at ten days old
the r|zen sub got taken over by a “ ewk convert ” ie theksepyro
the mods wanted me gone so i eventually took the hint
my mistake was to think they were stupid, but they were extremely clever in the way they delete the best
OP’s to keep it on the perverse track they like
basically they have won, pirates capturing the r|zen subreddit from what used to be community run
glad to see when
some-one else brings up the censorship, they like to pretend there is none
the guru dregs
the number of volunteer salesmen around for this or that guru or “ spiritual teacher ” amazes me
like if they at least were paid it would be understandable
but as it is, promoting shitty idiots for nothing
why ?
one step
another step
a hundred steps later
to your surprise
you have got somewhere
a poem
something that makes sense
despite the words
a word to the wise
if the wise don’t hear
how much more so
the
ignorant
mental work is physically exhausting
physical work is mentally exhausting
“ ch’an masters ” is a literary fiction
wanderingroninxiii
why r|zen is messing you
what i noticed is that initially the mods used to delete a lot of your
OP’s, but you conformed and it hurt you, you fell into their stupidity
it took me a while to work out, but i had the same problem, the mods were deleting my best OP’s, that's when i figured it was a subtle form of banning, they really don’t want me so i have completely stopped posting there and that’s worked for me, i still read it occasionally and every time i want to post, i think, well they will just delete my OP's again and have to put up with ewk’s harassment, i just don’t want that trauma again
you lost your
self-integrity
“ dunning-kruger ” describes so much of the net and if we are honest, we can see it in ourselves
“ enlightenment is the knowledge that all experience is transitory
including the experience of enlightenment ”
if its transitory its not the real thing and the fact its not transitory is why it hardly ever happens,
no-one wants their life turned upside down, better just to waffle in the usual bullshit
the aliens
playing at the end of time
dissonant
wrong cords in sequence don’t paper over bad claims for understanding
wome who do drugs and drink in their prime
get fucked over
when the “ pauses ” hit
late onset schizophrenia
i
am
afraid
ronin has left r|zen
a man going in circles
“ will he always go in circles ? ”
yes, he will always go in circles
he’s schizophrenic
a million monkeys
at a million typewriters
every sentence they write
makes
a
religion
admidst all the mountainous
brickabrak of stone in all the world’s mountains
there’s one with writing on
find
it
and
read it
“ what did it say ? ”
only your own experience is valid
my poetry
not jewellery adorning a nonexistant intellectual prowess
nor a sentimental slush offering “ comfort ”
not even a fresh breeze cooling the day
but
something
else
how you find it
you’ll know
my poetry
not jewellery adorning a nonexistant intellectual prowess
nor a sentimental slush offering “ comfort ”
not even a fresh breeze cooling the day
but
something
else
“ where do your poems come from ? ”
still working on that
there’s something appealing about these videos, its a
mother’s interest in her child
i am the world
therefore when i cease
what happens to the world ?
i am the world
therefore when i cease
the world ceases
how to climb the matterhorn
no. one rule, choose the weather
no.
2 be fit
no. three follow the signs and use the handily placed ropes and chains (very swiss)
all in all doesn’t look that difficult, but since i have seen the video, i don’t think i’ll bother
there is no existance or meaning to existance
outside of existance
ferals at the end of time
all you can do
is make
your
peace
with
them
everything is a sign
misdirection
points to
direction
when you get to the end
there’s nothing
except you
and the odd feral
and a sort of beauty
wish i could say there’s more
but there isn’t
otherwise
it
wouldn’t
be
the
end
hope is a bird
that hops like a wallaby
always a chimera
that mixes with pathos
netflix are following in a long tradition of renaissance art in portraying jesus
as gay
everything propagates away
in a million directions
not quite worthless
but not having utility
the real and useful
is only a tiny proportion
everything just propagates away
in a million directions
not quite worthless
but not having utility
the real and useful
is
only
a tiny
proportion
i quite like posting “ entertainment links ”
people are necessarily in denial about quality writing and thinking, but
no-one is in denial about quality musicianship, they have to listen, take it on board and it stretches them
what distinguishes “ virtuoso ” guitar players is the ability to
pluck the fret
bach’s
prelude no.
2 in
C minor
a very good
interview with margaret attwood, can’t say her writing interests me, but as a person she comes across very well
her parents were from nova scotia, that island of autism, i even had an ancestor that stopped off there for a while
endless the wind, yet it has its pauses
the tragedy of getting old is we lose contact with our childhood, its always there of course but in a sense we have lost touch with it
“ god says yes to me ” a
meme-ic poem by kaylin haught
i asked god if it was okay to be melodramatic
and she said yes
i asked her if it was okay to be short
and she said it sure is
i asked her if i could wear nail polish
or not wear nail polish
and she said honey
she calls me that sometimes
she said you can do just exactly
what you want to
thanks god i said
and is it even okay if i don’t paragraph
my letters
sweetcakes god said
who knows where she picked that up
what i’m telling you is
yes yes yes
my counterpoint
“ i asked god if it was okay to be melodramatic ”
he said, keep a lid on it
“ i asked her if it was okay to be short ”
he said, you just have no idea do you ?
i asked her if i could wear nail polish
he replied you’re not gay and format your writing in a way that the writing likes best
i’m not here and neither are you and that’s both our problem
if
some-one is insane
and you try to tell them they are insane
that makes you insane
vacate if you can
its an education you can do without
if you can’t
make the most of the education
if
some-one is insane
and you try to tell them they are insane
that makes you insane
vacate if you can
its an education you can do without
if
some-one is insane
and you try to tell them they are insane
that makes you insane
women make these little narratives they follow through
the road is littered with corpses of men and themselves
abscure
obscure abscond
too early
a weaning makes you susceptible to developing type
2 diabetes in later life
lurkersim replied to my “ trapped ” poem
stop the world then be its pace. you need to make things more real, knowing you do.
but perhaps that was prose. so a shadow i sharpened
my reply
stop the world — impossible to pace
real is relative and so is prose
a shadow i sharpened turned into a rose
the noise of the world offers no solace
white island has
erupted (december 2019) killing or giving extreme burn injuries to tourists caught on the island
i think what makes it so dangerous, apart from the unpredictability is the funnelling effect of the crater
when i was a child we had a holiday house at ohope and could often see white island smoking away in the distance
tour videos
by helicopter by boat
to be trapped in flickering shadows that pass
surely there must be something more real ?
you write
you say something interesting
you put it clearly
then you are disappointed people understand it
i don’t know akhmatova well
perhaps she gave herself to writing too much
a flaw of the process
i think its fundamental we only come this way once, all the buddhist crap about karma and
re-incarnation couldn’t be more misguided
the first item from tiāntóng rújìng’s list of
do nots told to eihei dogen
“ you must not have prolonged illness ”
yup eihei diogen picked up tuberculosis in china, i’d
re-translate what rújìng says as “ pay attention to your health ” and in fact dogen completely missed the point of sun drying mushrooms, they were a source of vitamin
D in winter, something that would be a big help in
TB resistance
one of the problems with psychiatric medications is the way side effects are ignored, its absolutely normal now for people to be prescribed three or more medications and the side effects of these combinations can be very destructive, when i was posting on r|docs there was lot of this and complete denial as to what was happening
what a religion is has always puzzled me, i have never seen a satisfactory definition and it is confusing because some “ religions ” like buddhism and zen claim not to be religions
what i have found is a religion can be defined as
anti-dialogic, monoglossial and the carnivalism is ritualised
r|zen is highly illustrative of something that is attempting to form a religion, it has a good grip on the
anti-dialogical through censorship and is disgustingly overloaded with the fake carnivalism, however why it won’t ever make it as a religion is the problem intrinsic to being a message board, a lot of different voices coming from many directions so is somewhat heteroglossial
interestingly, the web as a social and literary medium is highly dialogic and heteroglossial, but as a result of millenial entitlement is losing a robust sense of carnivalism that used to be much more acceptable, in terms of society, two out of three is as good as you can get, nazi germany and stalinst russia were zero on all three, mikhail bakhtin barely escaped the gulags, his writings seem too obscure to capture the interest of the
OGPU, but actually at a fundamental philosphical level he deconstructed the soviet state
the inability for any society to fulfill all three categories means their inevitable dissolution, whereas quality literature fills all three and it lasts
“ gripping ” to watch
climbing the southern tip of ayères via a guide book of the
1959 vaucher route
yes, they consult the book on the way up
william blake must have got his
muscular “ archetype ” from michelangelo, but he wasn’t gay like michelangelo so really it doesn’t fit, if you look at the fresco carefully, there's nothing new about “ transgender ”
michelangelo was just painting the homosexual equivalent of voluptuous female nudes, says a lot about the catholic church doesn’t it ?
triglycerides in the blood triggers the innate immune system in a
destructive way
triglycerides are the main constituents of body fat, no wonder being overweight is so destructive to health
interests in childhood are so determining of directions in later life
he must have seen
this as a child to want to create
this as an adult
the mystical path is an odd sort of path, you can’t see ahead but you can see where you’ve come
there really is only your own experience and not some external system you can slot a person’s “ progress ” into
hmm, you should apply spray paint using
short quick bursts
basically writing is a form of memory
except what you write will shape your future
basically writing is a form of memory
except what you write will shape future memory
there’s an exercise you can do for dry eyes (counter-intuitively a watery eye is symptomatic) to dampen the immune response which causes the problem, just move them left and right, up and down and diagonally as far as they go
you do this occasionally, the effect is not immediate, but a bit later
supplementation with a small amount of selenomethioine also helps
screen use can be causative
when i wake in the morning
its like being dragged out of bed by a polar bear
its not of this world or any other
from ice covered water into what is not much better
maybe a seal flapping on a polar ice cap surrounded by predators
half an hour later i am ready to rise
escaping back into the reality of living
melancholy with its sense of things gone before they start
the fake and the real
but the real turns out to be fake
and the fake real
you really get a sense of a
different culture with this yemeni jewish song and a sense of the importance such singing must have had in a
pre-modern society, much more participatory than today’s bland consumer nonsense
the increased cancer risk from drinking
is linearly proportional to the amount drunk
its mostly in the fun areas of the colorectum, stomach, breast, prostate, and esophagus
basically philosophy ignores the problem of recursion which is why it is a waste of time
poetry doesn’t
you can’t cope with recursion by conventional speaking
no wife, no life
have a wife, no life
somethings read the same
i’ve realised that there is often more than one version of a poem, printing on paper costs, so you never saw other versions, but with the web of course you can put up as many as seems right
listening
to this , i feel there is a better more polyphonic? version that will never be explored because of the cost
society worships medicine
if they worshipped plumbers it would seem absurd
and actually its absurd to worship medicine
basically its just another trade
the instability of the cornea is the hidden bogeyman of refractive surgery
mention it and they will just look blankly at you
hint : its a flexible dome that goethe knew something about
i think there’s an important point about this
, hate emails are remote, if these people lived close a certain proportion would attempt to intimidate through violence
insanity is a defence in a court of law, supposedly these people are not “ rational ” but is it that the bar is shifted?
, they are going to tolerate the prospect of confinement in the implementation of their ideas whereas normally people will not tolerate the prospect of going to prison in almost any context
“ absence of personal evidence, is not the same thing as evidence of absence ”
multiple presences of contrary evidence means it is wrong
a lot of this gender/trans/safe identity nonsense being pushed by certain sections of academia is schizophrenia asking or insisting on an exception to rational argument
you can’t have a free press in war time
observation, in itself, is an interactive process
what is observed defines you
as well as you defining it
everyone has these
damned ski poles when hiking, the extra weight and attention required is not worth the imagined benefit
the wild rose
over the fence
i gave it some water
the next day
it flowered
young people with limited experience can’t be too fussy, does the job pay you in experience as well as money ?
a million times around
the same road
a trauma experienced a long time ago
why
do
i
bother ?
this
is the work of an extremely competent depressive, going in at life at too deep a level and to be swallowed by an imbalance of constructive effort versus final result
the academic system is producing literary vomit
the lives of contemporary poets are too smooth and lack refractive depth
to be honest the lyrics for choral music are gibberish, their heft comes from the music and sounds of the words, not the meaning of the lyrics
same here with
this composition and i assume the lyrics are by roma ryan to fit the story, gibberish, but the music and sound stands alone
when auden seems weak
bukowski passé
emily incomprehensible
and sylvia outré
well
then
i suppose you can
always
write your own
the fact of observation calls something into being, the universe is observed and is therefore called into being
of course it has been observed in different ways and called into being in different ways
what does it mean for something to exist without observation ?
hilmar zonneveld replied
it simply means that something exists, but this existence can’t be verified
my reply
who can’t verify it ?
hilmar zonneveld replies
well, you asked what it means for something to exist without observation.
in the case you mention,
NOBODY can observe it. or at least, nobody
HAS observed it
my reply
yet it still has been observed, you can’t say something doesn’t exist because ipso facto it has already existed
hilmar zonneveld is being persistent and replies
“ you can’t say something doesn’t exist ” i’m not sure what you mean here. the point is, something may well exist even if it hasn’t been observed
my reply
tell me something that exists that hasn’t been observed
the persistent hilmar zonneveld deflects
well, duh. if it hasn’t been observed, we can’t know whether it exists
my reply
hypothesis and speculation are forms of existence and observation, your reply is actually a form of speculation and implied existence/nonexistence, if you imply nonexistence, then that is a form of existence
cause and effect can be difficult to discern with medication side effects
idiots are ten a penny on the web
“ in
this paper , they explain that human behavior relies on predictions of future states of the environment — a best guess at what might happen — and the degree of uncertainty about that environment increases dramatically in social settings
to predict what might happen when another human is involved, a person makes a model of the other’s mind, called a theory of mind, and then uses that model to simulate how one’s own actions will affect that other “ mind ” ”
white light during sleeping hours messes your circadian rhythm, the brain sees white/blue as daytime and red/no light as night
a dysfunctional circadian rhythm messes your immune system and that includes its
anti-cancer action
you “ called ” me
well i “ called ” you
why no reply ?
poetry is basically
super-high negentropy
it can be
expanded to say a lot
why would you take a medication without researching the side effects ?
drugs in combination trace new unknown spaces in terms of side effects
operations have downsides, what are they ?
billions of dollars of medical research on the web and
no-one wants to know what may well save them a lot of ongoing trauma
what to write about ?
well, write about what you didn’t know until you wrote
i was never able to do zazen outside of it being compulsory, like the weekly zen group meeting or a sesshin or the daily routine at a center
interestingly at the springwater center where sitting was not compulsory i never sat at all, but went for walks
i’m much older now and i actually feel its unsafe to sit from a health point of view at my age
i do feel the sitting (seiza) i did was useful when younger, but i never actually did that much
zen historically was a celibate childless tradition, i am not sure how well it maps to “ married with kids ” and if its even worth bothering with zazen for them, it just could be quite the wrong road
the weird thing i find about “ do nothing ” contemplation, is you have to do quite a bit of it or you run into trouble, it can amplify mistakes and then you have to see the mistake and work your way through it, not a good thing if you have family responsibilities
my observation of
99% of people doing zen is they are wasting their time, they are getting as much or more wrong than they are getting right and are just not moving forward at all, or, to be honest, they are really going backwards and were better to have had nothing to do with zen
i think when you “ grow out of something ” you don’t lose the original but a wider horizon replaces what went before
so in the case of growing out of “ sitting meditation ” which really is the building of a certain sort of introspective awareness that becomes part of your normal activity, like i don’t sit, but i do spend several hours not doing anything most evenings, a sort of a contemplative or decompressive mode, there’s an endless tying of loose ends and looking at things in new ways that is constantly required
the problem with writing is you can spend a day writing and what have you to show for it ?
just some writing
its schizophrenic when they not actually interested in communicating
vladimir nabokov learned english as a child, all the same i don’t think multilingual speakers can write poetry properly
the very overrated opening lines from his overrated book “ pale fire ”
i was the shadow of the waxwing slain
by the false azure in the windowpane
i was the smudge of ashen fluff — and i
lived on, flew on, in the reflected sky
and from the inside, too, i’d duplicate
myself, my lamp, an apple on a plate
uncurtaining the night, i’d let dark glass
hang all the furniture above the grass
and how delightful when a fall of snow
covered my glimpse of lawn and reached up so
as to make chair and bed exactly stand
upon that snow, out in that crystal land
my comment
it says something, but doesn’t seem to say anything
the book is basically a failure imo, turn in your grave vladimir
poor vladimir
stuck in fantasies
being multilingual
he couldn’t quite bridge the gap
into poetry
a waxwing
flying into windowpane blue
thought to itself
that’s not the right hue
that damn nabakov
he kills with a pen
mirror image him commensurate
no bloody trawl from the sky’s pen for him
specious reflections
in centrally heated comfort
toss him out
into the crystal land
during my time in real life zen what i found it has most to offer that people on the web miss is the experience of socializing and dealing with people
so they just post rabidly and in real life that would cause severe problems
the sitting experience is useful or even essential but you should grow out of it, hardly anyone ever does though
where zen is weakest is its ipso facto religiosity, taking of zen texts as scripture and overall narrowness and lack of imagination, which was why i eventually left after visits to and stays at various centers, however the socializing experience was very important to me
ed gepixel asks
and what are you doing now ?
my reply
walking the long road while i exist
i’m on my second pair of “ online glasses ” (from visiondirect) and on balance, much prefer the online supplier to getting them from the optometrist
the price is about a third, i get the frame i want and i can modify the prescription to give me the monovision that suits
you need the
PD and the bridge distance on the frame is important
there is an epidemic of shortsightedness occurring because children don’t play enough outside and get the distance use of the eyes
you have to agree to a certain point to talk productively
you may think you agree with me but you don’t
so i’m not going to waste my time arguing with you
you may even claim to think i know what i am talking about, but if i can say you are looking the wrong way at something and you argue the point, then you don’t think i know what i am on about, behavior trumps vacant claims
if you stop thinking there is an external world
or any world at all except yourself
things look different
claire greenwood is making progress,
poetic , no politics or zen dogma but a sort of stitching of her own experience
when you start to get it right, only the strange are around, the “ norms ” vacate
the nature of this world is unending
yet it has endings
the sums
add
and
don’t
add
what is this
telling us ?
worlds that don’t add up
the
simulated prosthetics of cgi
almost anything done by cgi actually
infinity
something stretches forever
what does that mean ?
i know about
6 words of samoan
20 words of french, several words of german, italian and spanish
and about
8 words of latin
i’m multilingual
we are basically negentropic organisms trying to parse negentropicalness from entropy in a world that is substantially, but not entirely, entropic
this, with a little finesse and work can be
re-organised to form a somewhat persistent or
non-persistent negentropical environment
we are basically negentropic organisms trying to parse negentropicalness from entropy in a world that is entropic, but with a little finesse and work can be
re-organised to form a somewhat persistent or
non-persistent negentropical environment
the human world is optimal,
sub-optimal or downright flawed and insane depending on the negentropic perspective taken
the difference between a mechanistic physical and chemical universe and biology is that biology acts like thought, it is, on balance,
negentropic
the difference between a mechanistic physical universe and biology is that biology acts like thought, it is, on balance,
negentropic
jason writes
here’s a tip/homily
don’t have so many toxic friends
they’re exhausting
they only fuel a toxic fire
there’s very little we can do that works
and actually this tempers us
we keep within the boundaries
its when they shift and we don’t realise or accept this, or even if we do
that we are thrust into the moil of not working again
usually we are unprepared
one versus many
many versus one
if the many don’t see you
then you escape unharmed
“ it is what it is ”
they are
what they are
a drop of being starts the whole process
audio
boarding school is a form of death
audio
so, a research round up
oral contraceptives
shrink the hypothalamus
“ our metabolism and biological clock are optimized for eating in the morning and
for fasting during the evening and night, when we are supposed to be asleep ”
being emperor you get the opportunity to make more mistakes than most
i made more mistakes than most emperors
what is loneliness ?
a feeling
just passing
god
is
always
there
what is loneliness ?
a feeling
just passing
infinity
is
always
there
translator’s fitment
a systemic disease with outbreaks when they come across something completely beyond their understanding
truth these days
means
i’m right and you’re wrong
truth these days means
i’m right and you’re wrong
its difficult to say “ be open ” because in general though the world is far too closed, openess requires discrimination to be safe and actually is not safe anyway
you can’t disrupt
some-one travelling in the wrong direction
the return journey is too much for them
you think you can beat life
no-one can beat life
even language fades
three peers
talking
i don’t know why i find
the suicide of virginia woolf so disturbing, is it all that writing effort to be terminated so abruptly ?
or its sheer depressive deliberateness ?
psychiatric medications are notorious for subtle side effects with long term use
what’s killing the tasmanian eagles here is because they are so big, when they land on power lines they can short them out
happened just down the road once, two of them, that’s about
.25% of the population
a relative donated a large sum to the new zealand forest and bird society and got a full page
write-up with photo in their magazine
i donated
$30 to wikipedia and got a form
thank-you email
such is life
there was actually a
snowball earth where the oceans
froze over
religion now is nothing compared to what it was in the middle ages
even soviet level social control wasn’t a patch on religion because everybody believed the religion
, but nobody believed the soviet nonsense
when you look at religion now, you are just looking at the smoking wreck of some grand human marvel
how effable is god ?
to say or have an idea of god or no god is effable ?
religion therefore can’t be quite bunk
eihei dogen spent most of his life reading and writing, this “ non reading ” “ grunt ” bias of zen has more to do with making unthinking soldiers, hence zen’s involvement with samurai culture and later the nationalism of the meiji era, the
russo-japanese war and
WW2
the interplay between buddhism and western philosophy started with greek ideas travelling along the silk road and really buddhism is nothing more than rather hackneyed philosophical ideas incomprehensibly strung together
buddhism was reintroduced so early (mid eighteenth century) back into western culture that japanese zen was influenced by this during the meiji era
to put this in perspective jane austen was influenced by buddhist thinking !
obviously modern psychology was very influenced by the buddhist ideas of jung and freud
for some reason buddhism and zen were thought to be something new to the west in the late 20th century, but they’re not, there have been periods of strong interplay, like with the ancient greeks and the conquests of alexander and after, then the mid and late eighteenth century
religions follow a differentiation paradigm based on an ineffable or effable god or buddha nature or whatever, christianity is
effable and actually islam is a supposedly
ineffable form of christianity
buddhism and zen are
ineffable only the practical implementation is very
effable since there’s no point to supporting priests if its all too
ineffable and in fact this is what you are trying to do brad (ed. warner)
, as an author your bias is to ineffability, but as a lineage holder you have to make it
effable and i don't think the tension is working, historically the only way this has ever worked (mary baker eddy and ron hubbard) is for you to make an exclusive sect which sensibly you won’t do
sects require censorship to be maintained and that you allow this post of mine is tautologically the destruction of any attempts to form a cult
postscript : i think you can argue that eiei dogen erred on the side of
effability and soto is a cult
jason’s artwork
bright dogs
oliver sacks didn’t come from nowhere as a writer, he had the huge benefit of being
a friend of w.h. auden
cystic fibrosis used to be a death sentence, having always been in robust health it was an eye opener to me to consider living life with the overhang
of an early death
is there a saying
don’t speak to the norwegians of the beauty of norway ?
pity the strange
pity the familiar
pity
the world must be somewhat malleable in our own image
or life won’t work
the crossword puzzle of being
heidegger’s hash
the jejune clues
the meaningless answers
the crossword puzzle of being
heidegger’s hash
the jejune clues
the clichéd answers
the crossword puzzle of being
heidegger’s hash
the jejune clues
the answers don’t inspire
which way to go ?
does it take cerebral palsy to pull one out of normality and think about life ?
the constant dysfunctional dissonance ?
or does the injury spring a source from a hidden fountain ?
so few of the injured are talented, but none of the uninjured have any talent at all
“ keep still, you can take it
stabilise yourself ”
my comment
dreams of stability
the normative paradigm
she washes her feet in the sea
and the sea is grateful
the web
the textural realm
unless you are skilled in
self-correction
you will be
led
deeper
into
insanity
in the queue for death
rather than take our rightful place
we jump
backwards
i was thinking i’m bitter
but how can life, no matter what, be anything
but
bitter ?
the dealer stacks the deck and
you
have
no right
of
redress
i’m a bit short, but i look normal
i even behave normal and at times sound normal
what if i wasn’t normal ?
how long would i last ?
nothing comes of anything i do
even
anything
the uyghurs
a proud people of the steppes, sky and horses
where are they now ?
in a clinical mausoleum
run by the deranged in the name of han supremacy
our lives are not crossing
your life is not crossing mine
we can relax
the poetic world is not strictly factual
hilter’s de facto was part jewish and he loved a young
half-jewish girl
stalin’s executioners were permitted the bourgeois comfort of masseuses to manage the
RSI on their trigger fingers
stalin himself went to confession
genghis khan’s wife knitted him warm jerseys for his campaigns
mother teresa didn’t believe in god
elizabeth the first was a polymath
shakespeare never wrote those plays
jesus, muhammad and buddha are a triumvirate in bad soap operas
moses is a
rip-off of dionysis
noah’s ark was a supersized coracle
one of the greatest modern poets was a palsied cripple who couldn’t really speak
sylvia plath wrote prose so well she would have been much better to take it, rather than poetry, up as a career
if japan and germany had worked together and resourced a joint atomic bomb project adequately, they could have had one before the allies
between the war and stalin, russia killed so many of its best people, it genetically selected for cretinism
islam is a christian sect
the germans at the time of facing off the romans across the rhine had a panoply of greek gods they worshipped
voltaire invented western buddhism
rousseau killed his children
wolfgang goethe himself condemned margareta to death
bob dylan being awarded the nobel prize for literature crashed the betting racket behind the award
pope benedict the xvi was a raging queen
the empress alexandera and her grand duchess daughters wore diamond bullet proof underwear to their execution which made for a particularly slow and bloody business
this
ant war seems like science fiction, but its science fiction that has copied from the ant world
if you scratch originality in writing, plagiarism is revealed, nothing is more scarce than the solipsist genuine
i quite like
this OP , its a very good illustration of what schizophrenia is
my reply to him
you still have a problem with hubricity and misinterpretation, which actually is in the area of schizophrenia rather than depression
we’re all the same, we can’t change basic patterns in ourselves but we can be more cautious, do research and discuss things more before forming opinions
one thing most current research on depression agrees on is the necessity of exercise
zen like all religions
is bad soap opera
entertainment for the idiot insane
read history and politics looks crazy
read poetry and life looks crazy
read the ancients and time looks crazy
read history and politics looks insane
read poetry and life looks insane
read the ancients and time looks insane
the
that of zen is a fiction or misperception
some chains the dumb use to shackle themselves
as i get older, i have a different relation to time
an hour is no longer wide
but walks past at a leisurely pace
seconds are too minute for me and as for a minute
what is that ?
when you come to get the glasses made, the frame should have a bridge distance which gets the eyes as central to the lens as is reasonable
black and white
white and black
there is nothing that is not all good
or
all
bad
if the question is a fiction, then any answers are going to be idiocy
high blood pressure is associated with high
IOP and in general is not good for the eye or brain
what you see on waking up is hypnagogic and if it means anything, what it is, nobody knows
unreal worlds abound
real worlds only seem to come in one version
pain and its interludes
the orange sliver of a tenth crescent moon
seen through distant gums
speaks more to me of life
than any amount of writing
the orange sliver of a tenth crescent moon
seen through distant gums
speaks more to me of life
than any writing
elizabeth the first hit the ground running, becoming queen at age
twenty-five, it was some feat to have survived to that point and she went on to become a brutal and effective monarch, skilled enough to die at the late age of
69, possibly of lead poisoning from her
make-up
the question is how was she able to steer with such a skillful hand, one that really required several lifetimes to have been lived
well
she read tacitus and so lived through the lessons of a particularly murderous period of rome’s political history
when trust goes
it goes forever
despite r|zen’s claims not to be religious/ a religion, they are
they have the salient characteristics, they work from some nonsense of a script (the ch’an texts)
, pretend that they have some secret understanding of them which always has to be the case since how otherwise would such bad fake carnivalism mean anything and they missionize from that which at the same time creates some fragmentary glimmer of self esteem for these poor depressed retards
they also censor which is the hallmark of
anti-dialogism, i don’t know whether you can call the incoherent babbling heteroglossia or not, probably not as it has no range outside insanity
why cannot “ religious ” people talk in plain english and sensibly rather than from whatever compendium of “ mentally ill ” bullshit
well perhaps its good for hiding ignorance and stupidity (at least to themselves) ?
some optometrists give much better prescriptions than others
there’s public voynich
and
one’s own personal voynich
all the might of the educational establishment cannot defeat quality literature’s ability to speak to those willing to listen
theology = philosophy + stupidity + denial
, a nice sum indeed
philosophy, a road that doesn’t go anywhere
so full of pretensions it goes somewhere
of course wittgenstein can say this and is lauded
but the way i put it earns the fools ire
non existance is a possibility of existance
therefore god neither exists or doesn’t
this is the small sum of the great endeavor of theology
ancient instruments, a modern tune — guzheng and drum
sun quan the emperor
i was listening to the
mesmeric margaret attwood who made a point that i had never considered and that’s the role of god as a political figurehead, which is in fact the primary role
“ what do you think ? ”
i don’t know, i haven’t thought
nothing goes nowhere
somewhere goes to anywhere
somehow goes to anyhow
the moon goes to the sea
and the sea goes to cheese
if you think there’s any sense to this
you’d be wrong
there’s always a puzzle
what is the puzzle ?
i can’t grasp it
there’s always a puzzle
what is the puzzle ?
i can’t quite grasp it
when someone is, in the last analysis – irrational – they are mad
when someone is, in the ultimate analysis – irrational – they are mad
she has an intelligent viewpoint, but with these outright
psychotic storylines , you wonder how such a thing could be and actually there’s an answer, she’s a pot head and who knows what else
you don’t have to look for the insane on the web, open a door and they jump right into your lap
drugs are not cognitive, “ spirtual insight ” has to be cognitive
dogen zennists “ just sit ”
, but their founder, eihei dogen did nothing but write and think, they just don’t get it
women like themselves and their emotionality
they may dislike themselves
but they never question their emotionality
philosophy and religion don’t mix
the religious never lose the chance to “ indoctrinate ” with their “ schizophrenic rambles ”
the religious never lose the chance to indoctrinate with their schizophrenic rambles
pontius pilate got in early
“ what is truth ”
jesus thought he had the answer
i think actually it was the combination of stalin and beria that made their rule so lethal, without their combined and mutually compensatory competence the regime would have fallen apart
bad luck for russia of course
when stalin started to threaten beria and the politburo, they were forced to have him killed
teal swan makes an interesting point about women being
fearful and i think the opposite also holds, men are not fearful enough
of course there is plenty of trouble with
non-physcial bad situations creeping up on us unnoticed, violence has many colours
the stealthy calm of death
aferwards feeling surprised
a bad migraine
the stealthy calm of death
aferwards — feeling surprised
a bad migraine
the stealthy calm of death
aferwards, feeling surprised
a bad migraine
one thing after another falls into place
slowly
over the years
if i could say something
it would already be said
but since its not
i say
nothing
i know a lot
but somethings i really know and the rest is a bit of a mess
“ live in the moment ”
i don’t want to live in the moment, the whole span before and after is where i want to live
and perhaps we do
if you look at the great writers they always fill the three bakhtin categories of dialogism,
heteroglossia and carnivalism
non writers and pretentious idiots don’t fill any of the three
inferior writers are always hitting the ceiling of their lack of fulfilment of that holy “ trinity ”
its interesting that stalinism “ went ” for bakhtin and he was lucky to avoid death in a gulag camp
the infinite nature of life itself is the working of god
the infinite nature of life itself is the working
how irish jokes get made is they start off
as true stories
fractals, like string theory is something not
100% coninuous with nature
self similarity has a logical flaw
tell me
mathematical structures are descriptive, not prescriptive of how nature works
i went for a walk along a bit of coast i haven’t visited for a while with some rather nice old gardens, a fine but very windy day and thinking about a few things and the following poem came to me
everything is changed
i’ve changed
you’ve changed
the trees change
the leaves change
the sea changes
the rocks don’t change
i couldn’t remember whether the second and third line were reversed or not so here it is
everything is changed
you’ve changed
i’ve changed
the trees change
the leaves change
the sea changes
the rocks don’t change
the magnet of damaged men is too much for her
and she has a child
the magnet of damaged men is too much for her
and she has
a baby
the magnet of damaged men is too much for her
and she writes about
a baby
“
shaking the head to get rid of water in the ears could cause brain damage ”
i notice that possums have a lot of muscle around their skull, this must be to cushion the impact to the brain in falls
space is free on the “ interweb ” so i’ll do this in full
the poem by
antarah ibn shaddad
دَع ما مَضى لَكَ في الزَمانِ الأَوَّلِ
وَعَلى الحَقيقَةِ إِن عَزَمتَ فَعَوِّلِ
إِن كُنتَ أَنتَ قَطَعتَ بَرّاً مُقفَر
وَسَلَكتَهُ تَحتَ الدُجى في جَحفَلِ
فَأَنا سَرَيتُ مَعَ الثُرَيّا مُفرَد
لا مُؤنِسٌ لي غَيرَ حَدِّ المُنصُلِ
وَالبَدرُ مِن فَوقِ السَحابِ يَسوقُهُ
فَيَسيرُ سَيرَ الراكِبِ المُستَعجِلِ
وَالنَسرُ نَحوَ الغَربِ يَرمي نَفسَهُ
فَيَكادُ يَعثُرُ بِالسِماكِ الأَعزَلِ
وَالغولُ بَينَ يَدَيَّ يَخفى تارَةً
وَيَعودُ يَظهَرُ مِثلَ ضَوءِ المَشعَلِ
بِنَواظِرٍ زُرقٍ وَوَجهٍ أَسوَدٍ
وَأَظافِرٍ يُشبِهنَ حَدَّ المِنجَلِ
وَالجِنُّ تَفرَقُ حَولَ غاباتِ الفَل
بِهَماهِمٍ وَدَمادِمٍ لَم تَغفَلِ
وَإِذا رَأَت سَيفي تَضِجُّ مَخافَةً
كَضَجيجِ نوقِ الحَيِّ حَولَ المَنزِلِ
تِلكَ اللَيالي لَو يَمُرُّ حَديثُه
بِوَليدِ قَومٍ شابَ قَبلَ المَحمِلِ
فَاكفُف وَدَع عَنكَ الإِطالَةَ وَاِقتَصِر
وَإِذا اِستَطَعتَ اليَومَ شَيئاً فَاِفعَلِ
recitation
my reworking
i am a solitary traveller
everything falling behind me
the clouds crossing the moon
like a rider in haste
an eagle snatches a fish
in its claws
like a torch this shines to me
life is short
make the most of it
now to do the rework i took another translation and cross referenced with a google translation
let what went on for you in the first time
in fact, if you intend to wail
if you cut off desolate land
i threw him under the rooster in a flock
i walked with the chandelier alone
i have no sociable other than the threshold of the root
and the full moon over the clouds market it
he shall walk the rush of the rider
and the eagle toward the west throws himself
he almost stumbles with unarmed fish
and the ogre between my hands is hidden sometimes
and it reappears like a torch light
with blue eyes and a black face
and nails are similar to the edge of the sickle
and the heaven dispersed around the forests of the elephant
with them and their blood did not lose sight of
and if she sees my sword, she is afraid
as of the noise of the neighborhood camels around the house
those nights if his conversation passes
a young folk was born before the lamb
so stop and let the lengthening and confined to you
and if you can do something today, do it
the other translation by user/arabicpoetrytl, supposedly the poem was written as a challenge to a duel by antarrah in response to an insulting poem by turfah
let go of what had come to you in ages past
and to truth, if you set forth then keep true
if you had traversed a path of strife
and walked it under the oppression of the night in a legion
then i had traversed the pleiades alone
no companion to me, but the point of my sword
and the clouds above, dragged by the moon
moving with the pace of a rider in haste
and the eagle, to the west, plunges itself
almost stumbling upon hapless fish
and the ghoul between my hands vanishes an instance
and returns to burst forth like the blaze of a torch
with blue eyes and a black face
and nails alike the edge of a scythe
and the jinn scatter about forests of emptiness
thundering, crimson red, unresting
and were they to see my sword they clamor in fright
like the clamor of cattle around a house
these are night which, if their tales are told
of the son of a people, oldened before conception
enough of you, cease the delay and cut short
and if its in your ability to do something today, then do it
“ eight count ” by charles bukowski
from my bed i watch three birds on a telephone wire
one flies off. then another
one is left, then it too is gone
my typewriter is tombstone still
and i am reduced to bird watching
just thought i’d let you know, fucker
my reply
the swallows flood into my garage
well actually only the usual pairs
i try to chase them out
but they keep returning
i pull down the garage door
all these talentless idiots on the web making videos of charles bukowki’s poems that don’t relate to the meaning of the poem at all
express expression
de-pression
what is there to say ? in the saying
saying
say-ing ?
the power of ridicule and irony is their vestment in absurdity
the difficulties of existance are only matched by the beauty of
non-existance
however
there is no straight road
between them
the difficulty of existance is only matched by the beauty of
non-existance
however
there is no straight road
between them
you completely undercut the existence of any monk or nun if you challenge the existence of buddha or jesus
their model of life is exposed as absurd — bad fiction or an unreal soap opera
one skill that definitely grows and takes a long time and a lot of experience to develop is that of
self-editing and layout
sandro botticelli and andrew wyeth, egg tempera has its advantages, clearer, not as muddy as oils
weird, knowing they are egg tempera affects how you see the paintings
artists and writers who produce a lot of work, enter the statistical realm
that is, a small proportion of what is produced is going to be very good or much better than the rest
the odd thing is that from the producers point of view its hard to tell until the work is produced, that in some way it is just the same as the rest to them
teal swan claims to not be a cult leader but i think she actually is, she’s too restrictive on her own material and
anti-dialogical though not to an extreme degree
she claims to be “ open ” but the reality is schizophrenia and autism, however she is intelligent and makes interesting points
lol, well not quite
the usual guru
the only two
playing without sheet music are the two girls
they must be tapping the interior logic of bach in a way the others are unable to
dry eye is usually an inflammatory condition or too much screen time
learning to read a prescription is one of the best investments of time a person needing an optical correction can make
religions today are reinventions of their medieval progenitors, even or rather especially, islam
there is no understanding of this
everything goes in a straight line
until it stops
as it must
its funny how things go in a straight line
but straight lines end
because they have to
its interesting with chaucer and boccaccio, they were before syphilis, a more liberal sexual environment
its mad not to be depressed about the world
only here for a few blinks
it passes
all only to go around again
its mad not to be depressed about the world
only here for a few blinks
it passes
only to go around again
its mad not to be depressed about the world
only here for a few blinks
it passes
only to go around all again
what is what about ?
one rabbit hole
leading
into
another
what is what about ?
one rabbit hole leading into another
i am developing cataracts and both the surgeons i saw where pushing me to have toric iols put in to correct the astigmatism in one eye
i have reservations about this as torics, to be effective, require the eye and particularly the posterior and anterior cornea to be stable
to be fair to them they said i didn’t actually need the operation yet, but was “ eligible ”
however in a mere eight months since my last prescription the eye they wanted to operate on has had a massive drop of
.75 diopters of astigamtism, i can’t say
100% its not the lens but since its in the same axis it seems fair to infer most of the change to the cornea
if i had had the op, i would now be about
.6 AGR with the prospect of more astigmatism to come
i can’t see how you expect an aging eye to have a stable cornea, especially in the last years
its very hard to go against the opinion of experienced and well meaning people, but fortunately there’s a huge amount of high quality opthamological research on the net and reading this over many months gave me the edge over them
“ The against-the-rule
shift (
AGR) was faster for total corneal astigmatism than for anterior corneal astigmatism (ed. ie posterior corneal astigmatism was changing faster) and it occurred earlier in men than in women ”
pink against the green backlit leaves of an iris
closer, one plant has rich brown orange flowers
another an orangey yellow
i’m really feeling the limits of my colour vocabulary
i have always noticed that supplement taking is never stable, our brains want to drop them unbeknownst to ourselves
i had pretty much dropped selenomethionine and vitamin
A for the last six months to a year, but i do better with them
selenomethionine covers a number of bases, apotheosis, dry eyes and mouth and as a heavy metal sequestrant
vitamin
A makes me feel better, is apothetic and
anti-viral and is actually needed to “ balance up ” vitamin
D if you are taking it, however it has a downside of feeling migrainey sometimes which is why i stopped taking it
just a note, parts of the usa are unsually replete with selenium in the soil, so selenium may not be needed and if you supplement, you may even be getting too much
i quite like eyal massad’s paintings, he has a really good sense of colour and contrast
really what is the difference
between this and some abstract painting that sells for millions because of the artist’s name ?
well eyal’s will be the better painting
some times i don’t get a poem for days
, one looks in the cupboard, nothing there and the parlour looks bare
then when one least expects it, a poem turns up and oddly, or perhaps not so oddly it is traumatic
, a good poem is traumatic in itself
brad warner imo is one of the best zen teachers around, he has an uncertainty about himself and the world that is much more “ zen ” than the usual hubric idiocy they spout
he comes across as a person, not some clichéd stuffed kesa
dealing with people always hurts, just make the best of it
we were taught french at primary school, i usually came last in the class, but one year there the teacher complimented me at the end of year assessment saying that she thought i had tried that year
in hindsight, i think i was preserving my facility in english
life has all sorts of undercurrents we only partially perceive
understanding goes on forever
what doesn’t go on
forever
understanding goes on forever
what doesn’t go on forever ?
the artist has hands and legs
and bullshit for a brain
interestingly ambiguous, there is actually some sense to some of
im14andthisisdeep
some marketing genius at mitsubishi must have read william wordsworth’s poem
“ the world is too much with us ”
if you are on r|zen, you are a nutcase arguing with other nutcases